I shaved my sideburns off today, because I can. I also had a little bit of facial hair, which is NOT KAWAII AT ALL! So I shaved that, too! I didn't even know it was there! Eww!!
So yeah, I feel a little better now that I've done that. I never did like my sideburns, but it was always a subconscious thing. I never really thought about them, but when I would try to take photos of earrings or whatever, I'd look at the photo and think, "Yuck...that doesn't look good." Then I would delete it, take the earrings off, and photograph them on a table or something. Lol. But no longer!! The first photo is before, the second is after.

Life Update

The last thing I posted last year was something about my crush. I still have a crush on him, but he has a girlfriend, now. One that isn't me. It kind of sucks, but I try not to think about it too hard. These things happen, you know? There's nothing wrong with me. I just keep trying to tell myself that I'm perfect the way I am, and he just didn't get the opportunity to experience that, which is too bad for him. I'm still sad, though, even though I kind of know it wasn't meant to be. We haven't talked about it in a really long time, and I'd like to keep it that way. I just don't understand why anyone would pick someone else over me...I know that sounds selfish. No, that is REALLY selfish. We're all human beings here, with layers and personalities and lungs and hearts, but sometimes, that's so easy to forget.
I thought it would be kind of awkward to give him the fool's gold at this point, so I ended up only giving him the pet rock. He seriously appreciated it and laughed and even seemed a little moved that I thought of him. He thanked me and gave me this hug that was, like, a real hug. You know? He gave me a serious hug, like people give to people that they love. But he doesn't love me.
I feel really dumb because I'm just sitting here and crying for no real reason at all. I guess it's because things just aren't the same anymore and I miss him and I wish he wasn't with her. I didn't realize I actually care this much. But I guess no one has to know until they find this blog, which won't happen for a while until I get mildly famous.

Neck pillow!

This feels so incredibly right!!

Sorry~ I've been a bit busy! ^^

My outfit from Thursday! I have a few more outfit pics here.
I decided to upload some pics from the day I went to the aquarium for the first time with my dad. It was so much fun! ^^ I've never been to an aquarium before. Some of the animals looked kind of cramped though, which made me feel really bad!
I got a cute pillow there, too! Hmm, did I show it to you? I can't remember now!

Hi! I got these ridiculous gifts for SR at the aquarium yesterday~ wanna see??

Fool's Gold! I plan on writing a note that says something like, "SR, This is what I am not. I'm the real deal." Lol. And then, this little guy:

A pet rock. XD Because he seems to spend so much of his time by himself whenever he should be with family and friends! When he gets this, he will never have to be alone again! He'll probably think these gifts are the best ever because he'll laugh. That's honestly the only reason I got them. Because I knew he'd think it was funny and I love making him laugh. :}
Well, anyway, I've gotta hit the hay soon! Tomorrow (today) is gonna be a pretty busy day! Happy New Year's Eve!
What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? by Me (Jisu)

Sometimes when I look at or think about certain things, I just randomly start crying for no real reason. What are my eyes doing?? I really don't know.
So, today, I came up with a really great quote (that I tried to send to Blogger and it didn't send,for some reason):

The day to live is today.

What am I even talking about, you might ask? Well, I was thinking about all of the things I have been through in the past that have held me back, and it made me realize why I am the way I am. It really made me think about why I try to see everything in such a positive light, even when times make it difficult to do so. It's because I've realized that the life I'm living now is so much better than I ever thought it would be. It's so much better than what I had wanted when I was younger. I wanted to be thin, I wanted to be beautiful, and I wanted to be successful. But what am I, now, that's even better than all of that? I'm happy. I'm really, truly happy with myself and I like me, and I think that that is what truly makes me feel beautiful. Yes, there are things that I could improve on, but for the most part, I'm proud of who I've become. And after all the bullshit, I can still smile and say that all of those things are behind me. I have to live for what is happening now, not what happened 10 years ago. There's no day like today to take advantage of what you can have in your life. There's no day like today to be you and take charge of your life, doing things you've always dreamt of but never thought you could do. You can't let other people bring you down to their level. Other people think that you can't do certain things because they don't think they could, either. But I truly believe with all of my heart that there's no better day to live than today.

So, it's a Thursday early morning and I'm thinking about this new guy that I have a crush on, for some reason. Uncreatively, I'll call him SR. I think that the dumbest thing about liking someone is that you're always wondering things about them. Like, what time does he have to wake up in the morning for his job? Before he fell asleep, was he thinking about me? Has he ever masturbated to me before? Just common, normal thoughts are spiraling around in my head right now. Just some completely average thoughts, you know. Lol. But seriously, though. I do wonder these things! I wonder if other people do, too. All of these things.
I feel so relieved, telling him how I feel after only liking him for about a month or two. It's so much easier than it was with C. I was afraid of how he would react, but SR is so kind and sweet and easy to talk to, unlike C. C could be so mean sometimes, just like my dad. But SR is too nice and funny and I love being around him! :) He makes me feel comfortable and just, like. Right. You know? We have things in common and he's the perfect combination of silly and mature, which just makes sense for me. If I am with someone, I need them to be mature enough to deal with me but silly enough to understand my bizarre sense of humor. Which he does. And that makes me happy. :D Just thinking about him makes me happy and my face gets so warm! Even if we're not together forever, I feel like we wouldn't break up and it would be this whole ordeal. I feel like we could still talk, which is really nice.
Well, anyway, since I began the conversation both Tuesday and Wednesday, I think that I'll just wait for him to today. I hope he won't forget! I like talking to him; he's so interesting!