Boss DJ is stuck in my head.

So today, I talked with my crush's girlfriend and him together. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought...I really thought she didn't like me at first, but she is so nice. She's kind of like me. I don't know. She's one of those people where you talk to them, and you're just like, 'how can I be mad at that?' You can't; that's the answer. It's impossible to be upset. And I was so upset that he picked her instead of me for a long time. But when she laughed at something he had said, it didn't make me sad at all. I could hear her adoration for him in her laugh. And it just made me feel so much better because it made me realize that he's happy, and that they're happy together, which makes me happy, too. And it was just a good feeling and a good moment that I playing back in my head. I just feel so much better than I did before about when I saw him. I used to feel so down after seeing him because all I could think about was the fact that he wasn't mine. But now, it's not like that anymore. And I'm so thankful. :)

It was a beautiful day yesterday, and I'm sure it is today, too. I am so tired of doing homework. Is it time yet to be finished with school??? Because I am ready to move on to STLCC-Meramec, and I am ready for summer, and I am ready to drive, and I am ready to have a job! I am also ready to move somewhere in the city. I just don't want to be in the county anymore. It is so boring and I feel so much older than I actually am. I want to have fun! I never get to have fun. I'm going to end up being one of those 30 year-olds who is clubbing and being asked why I'm still partying, because I'm too old. It's going to be like that if I don't move back to the city soon. What I really can't wait for, though, is to move away from the border of Missouri and Illinois. I have always lived around this border. I've lived in St. Louis, I've lived in Wentzville, I've lived in Granite City, and I've lived in Maryville. I just want to get out of that area! I'm so tired of it! I'm ready for new things after I get my AA. It will be so nice to leave! I'll miss it, but I need to move on. Everything is growing to be so expected, you know? Anyway, ciao! I must do my Spanish homework. I don't get what is supposed to be done! These instructions are confusing. Bye!

The Windy City: Chicago!

I really want to go to Chicago this summer. No, cross that out. I will go to Chicago this summer because I need to go visit a school there, but what I want more than anything is to go with two of my closest friends in the world: J and Chris! I love these boys so much and we've discussed going on a really fabulous trip to Chicago before, but I don't think that either of them thought that we would be going this early or that we would all be going together. However, nothing could be more perfect, other than if Caity could make it, too. But I have a feeling she may be working, so it would be just the three of us. I don't want this trip to be a dream or a plan that we make for the distant future anymore. I want to make it a reality! J will be 18 at that point, and Chris will either be 19 still or 20 (he's a summer baby). We'll all be legal adults. What is there to lose? Hopefully not jobs. I really wish that we could go in the middle of the week, like M-W, but I doubt that would be reasonable. We could just do a weekend. We would leave on Friday night, stay in a hotel, I could visit my possible future school, then we could all hang out and go places with a map and then go home that night! We could probably only afford one night for the hotel. I'm really excited. Mama said that I could go with her and her bf, but that just doesn't sound fun, risky or adventurous at all, to me. I want an adventure. I want memories. I want something special, and this could be my chance! So I hope that I can take it with the two most important men in my life, other than Papa and Jesus Christ (haha, Gaga moment!). Please God, help us get through this semester and be with us on our (possible) future trip~! I haven't even told either of them my idea yet. Lol. I hope they don't cringe at the thought of spending that much time together because I love them both! They have so much more in common than they realize. This could really be a chance for them to see that in one another.